Dineen's Diversity

Do you really love me
Or should I set you free
Do you like to kiss me
Does it make your toes curl up on your feet
Do you get butterflies in your stomach
Does your heart skip a beat
Do you get sweaty palms
When you kiss me do you get excited or calm

Do you really love me
Or should I set you free
Do you miss me in the morning after
Do you feel you cant wait to see me again
Do I drive you away or do you wish to stay
Do you like to hear my laughter
Is it music to your ears or do I bring you to tears
When I cry or is it I drive you away with fear
Do you rally love me
Or should I set you free
Do you get intoxicated by the smell of my perfume
Does it drive you crazy, do I make your mind hazy
Am I soft to your touch or is it you don't
Like to touch me much
Do you like to run your fingers through my hair
Do I turn you on, do you care
Do I have that certain charm
Do you think I have style and grace
Do you think I'm pretty or sexy
Do you like to look at my face
Or is it you just don't care
Do you like to look into my eyes,
do you see darkness or do you see light
Does it feel wrong or right
When we make love does it make you feel closer to me
Or does it drive you further away from thee
Does it make you wish we never made love in the first place
Do you feel you can't live a day without thee Or should I set you free
Am I just a faze your going through
Will you leave me feeling blue
Or has your love grown for thee
Am I wasting my time or do I have a future to be had with you
So, do you really love me Or should I set you free

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As I sleep in a deep state, I get irate.
For I find my dreams make me weep when I
Awake from them.
I awake to find my hands clenched in fists,
Biting my lips, so tense, feel the need to want to scream.
For even being awake gives me nothing but exhaustion.
Being asleep and dreaming gives me nothing but
Excruciating pain.
Why can't anyone see the tears I cry like rain?
The dreams I have are scary, dark, and outrageous.
They tell me I'm insane.
Why can't they be that I'm courageous for getting through
This illness day after day?
Taking pills after pills, constantly talking to a therapist,
Which doesn't seem to help of having hope.
Dreams and voices I have make me in desperate need of
Some happiness and compassion.
Not darkness, loneliness, confusion, or complete madness.
Thought my dreams at least would give me answers or away
To end all this chaos.
I just can't find a way out. The want to end it all.
Quick take those pills with lots of alcohol.
This is your call.
Grab for that rope, and pull it tight around thy neck.
Take that razor and cut thy wrists, for no one cares or you
Will not be missed.
So what's the difference, you will never feel sane.
This is your call, nothing to lose or gain.
Am I vain or insane?
When will the dreams be happy ones?
When will I have control of these dreams and life?
Out of control, out of context, and order.
I long for a rest of it all.
I long for two arms to hold me close.
Say it will be alright, life will get better.
Just keep up the fight with all your might of defeating
This mental illness and dreams of sadness.
They will eventually diminish and you will overcome with
Hope and faith, to happier dreams and a happier life.
One filled with love and contentment.
For you made it through with courage, strength, hope,
And faith.

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This is coming form the heart.
I never want us to part.
You showed me what love is all about.
You showed me what a friend should be.
But now I feel I have no friends and your love.
So if you leave me now I'll be as lonely as can be.
So this is coming from the heart, coming from the heart.
Take me back, take me back.
Way back in the beginning of our love.
Show me show me what true love can be.
Show me show me that you are my friend and companion.
That no matter what you will support me.
Show me show me that our love and friendship will flourish and never end.
Show me show me that the love that was once in your eyes, and heart is
Still there.
For my love for you is coming from the heart.
Say you don't want us to part, and that you still love me.
That you will always protect thee and your love for me will never end.
Will only flourish and will never end.

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As darkness seeps into my dreams and darkness in life falls,
I feel the devil has come a knocking and a calling.
To take me away from a happy life I would like to lead,
To take over my kind heart and soul for him to feed on.
He wants me to be angry, mean, sad, and cold hearted.
I know this is his goal.
I don't want to be apart of that.
I will try with all my might, I will fight,
To not let him take control of thee, so I will fight.
I will have faith, love, courage, kind heartedness, and hope in Jesus Christ.
For I know he's giving me the strength to cope.
He sees the good in me, even though the devil makes me never free.
Jesus Christ is my hope, faith, strength, and savior.
Thank you Jesus Christ, for saving me.
Know I know I have been freed from my sins and past mistakes,
For Jesus Christ sees I've got hope of being a good seed.
And I know he will protect me from the devil and won't let him win.

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The fall is coming,
The leaves are beginning to fall.
I wish you would come a calling.
Soon the weather will be cold and I still don't have you to hold.
Soon the ground will be covered with snow and the
Land will look like white clouds.
So please say you will come a knocking,
And fill with just love in my stocking.
For back then we were a pair and we still are as fair.
The weather will be but of a fridge cold, so I would like to feel the warmth of your hold.
Sit and drink hot apple cedar.
Filled with laughter and glee.
For the winter brings nothing but romantic, cuddly, cozy nights.
For being in each other's arms feels right.
Making love is like the bliss that feels so right.
Making our nights full of passion, and our days bright.
Running through the snow, throwing snowballs, and making snow angels
To remind each other we have one looking after each other.

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I get depressed and overwhelmed with crying.
I feel all my life I've been told nothing but lies.
I get scared I think some wish I were dead.
The only thing that helps is taking my meds.
I feel lonely and scared.
I sometimes feel I don't know how to control my thoughts.
Sometimes life is good and sometimes it's unfair.
Was everything I learned and taught so untrue and that's why I'm so dysfunctional.
Why do I have to have these panic attacks?
What is it I'm missing and lacking to be a better stable person.
When I can't take my thoughts anymore and feel there is nothing in store for my life,
I stop taking my medication or I take my medication and try
to overdose on alcohol and pills.
Everything is so out of control and out of context.
I feel like my heart is pounding a mile a minute.
My thoughts are racing and my thoughts are a mess
Why does the sadness have to last.
Everything in my life seems so dark.
I can't seem to see the light.
Feel like I haven't left a good impression on anyone.
When I'm depressed, nothing in my life seems worthwhile or fun.
Seems like all I do is fight for what I need.
I feel incompetent and not worthy of love and kindness.
I try to heed others warning signs, but I know with out my meds
I will not make it.
So I try with all my might to keep my wits, faith, courage, and hope,
That I can take this mental health program and learn how to cope.
Without kind people and people who lend a shoulder and ear,
I fear I will not live to another day.
Even though now I'm thankful for another day.
I will try to live it one day at a time.

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May the light shine down on all
May all the wishes on stars that all make come true
May there be peace in the world
May joy, kindness, laughter, and love spread through out
And take away everyones sorrows
To only bring out happiness for the tomorrows
May all the dark clouds disappear from everyones life

Life is beautiful, love is kind, and precious. All to good for me

Dear Lord, and Angels

Please give my life some sense, direction, meaning, and purpose
Use my talents and abilities if any to spread love.
I surrender my life to you
Help me to remember that my real job is to love life as dark it may seem
Please help me to forget my frightening dreams
I'm so afraid of my past afraid this life now is not to last much longer
Don't know how much longer I can hold on

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I believe in love at first sight
I believe in holding on with all your might
I believe in wonder and whys
I believe in wishing on the stars in the sky
I believe in wishes coming true
I believe you don't always have to cry
So turn frowns and your blues away
Have a smile to put on your face to stay
Love can turn you around
Especially if the one who loves you is true to you
And chases away your dark and lonely cloud.
I believe in hugs and embracing one another
I believe it feels great when your heart flutters and you get weak in the knees and butterflies in your stomach
I believe in laughing till your full of glee and tears
I believe in walking and skipping in the rain
I don't believe someone is vain as to wanting to act like you're a kid sometimes.
I think is silly not to because in your heart you just might live longer if you do.
I believe in laughing until you feel light hearted and full of life and smiles.
I believe in having someone to love, and walk hand in hand, dancing The night away.
I believe in running and playing at times, but yet at times be serious is a must.
I believe in having someone to run through the sand on the wet beach.
I believe in whispering sweet nothings into each other's ears is fine.
I don't believe that true love should beseech each other.
I believe in talking and giggling as you dine in your most favorite romantic place.
See you both light up each other's faces.
I believe in not caring what other people think of your romantic appropriate affections in public.
I believe in caring for each other and helping each other grow.
I believe in not lying and telling each other the truth always.
For this will pay as having a trusting relationship is most important than anything else.
I believe in not taking advantage of one another.
I believe in not trying to replace the role model of mother or father,
but to be the best romantic, reliable, caring, honest, trustworthy, affectionate, companion to your mate.
I believe for when two believe in the same of all of the above
and good morals and values, then that is fate and destiny that the two of you belong together.

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There is no excuse to using or abusing me or anyone else.
There for I will not let anyone take advantage of thee or let anyone else be.
Judging others or me is only judging yourself secretly.
By hurting someone or myselfs feelings, sensitivity, and vulnerability should be not be abused or a game.
For if done would be a shame.
Using some ones kindness to someone else's advantage is not kind.
Playing games with someone's mind is not either.
Anger only hurts the soul and leaves an impression of an emptiness in the heart.
To not forgive one another or yourself only hurts your well-being and mind.
Which will only find you can't forgive yourself.
What you need to do is love yourself, love others, and love Jesus Christ.
Jesus Christ has saved me as well as everyone else.
There for I am free as well as all
God Bless America

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I always give away my heart so freely,
But was hesitant on giving it completely.
Are you looking just for a fling, or an affair.
Or are you interested in me, to possibly be a pair?
Do I have for you what it takes, or will my heart
Be left to ache?
Will this be happily ever after?
Or will this to turn out to be a disaster?
I'm not going to give up, till you believe I fell I love with you.
I just hope and pray this love and you will turn out to
Be true.
So please ease my mind and say you love me to.

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Come rescue me, I don't feel safe or free.
I can feel the danger of all the anger that is going around.
It makes me so sad and I want to frown.
These tears keep falling down my cheeks.
Everything always seems to stay the same week to week.
No peace of mind, always feeling heartache.
Oh for heavens sake please come hold me close.
I need someone like you who seems so kind.
My whole life has changed with you in my world.
Your hand holding mine, and warm embrace makes me stop feeling scared.
It makes me feel safe with seeing that smile on your face.
I know we where meant to be.
Never had a chance to grow and to be a pair.
Our love never had a chance to grow that seems so unfair.
They made you go away to soon.
Now I feel forever blue.
I know our love could have grown, for it's still strong.
Even though you are so far away, if we were given a chance I know our love would last.
We would forever dance, because it is still running strong.
Even though we are apart you have me lost in the love of your heart.
I need you, want you to come back so desperately.
Why can't they just leave us alone to be free with the love we feel?
What kind of deal do we have to do?
Without your love and warmth in my life, it is making me feel alone, sad, and blue.
Everything in my life seems so tragic.
Together we are more magic then they can comprehend or handle.
Together we can mend each other and others.
I would like to be able to slow dance with you.
I would like to be able to have a full happy life with you.
I would like to be lost in a trance with you.
With out your hand to hold I feel lost and alone.
Wish I could hear your voice in my ears.
Look into your beautiful eyes with happy tears.
See your smile and hear your laughter.
I wish I had you near to hold and take away my tears and fears.
Even though things in my life and without you seems wrong,
And even though you seem so far away,
I will try to carry on and be strong until the day you come back to me.
So when you can, please come rescue me.

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To realize what a home could be…..
Full of love, peace, trust, and harmony.
To help one another
When things get rough.
To stay strong and tough, so
You can get through each days hurdles.
Share and care for one another to
Have a shoulder to cry and lean on once in awhile,
So problems don't keep on piling up.
To do things as a team.
To be honest and truthful.
Even if all problems seem so pitiful.
To be there for one another, when one of you
Is not feeling well.
Or just calling each other up on the phone for no reason
At all.
For that alone can tell you really care for each other.
It shows we can bring out the best in one another.
Being there for good times and the bad.
When we are happy or sad.
And even when things get to rough.
It is a test in life to see just how strong we all are.
When hopes and dreams seem so far,
We should try and take each other in arms and hug.
Because hugs can heal wounds that we feel inside.
Hold on tight and try to fix as much of everydays crisises,
And come together as a family.
Learning that life is not all peaches and cream
And being together as a team is the way
For better days.
Envy and hate can really hurt, so there should be none.
As we see days unfold and nights folding,
It's sometimes scary because life out there can be so cold,
And teach us not to hold
On to grudges for to long, if not ever.
All parents try to show us how to be strong but yet sensitive.
Even if certain decisions we make are not right.
But we must try and not give up,
Or hold onto too much sorrow.
Hold on the best way we can.
Thank the Lord for another day of life, to
Try to do it better tomorrow.

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As I lye awake besides you,
I watch you sleep so deeply.
So utterly peaceful and so full of content.
My prayer for you is to hope angels are guiding you through.
Dreams that won't leave you feeling blue.
Only dreams of happiness that will come true.
I wonder where your dreams have taken you.
Have they taken you to place far or near.
I hope and pray there not dreams that will leave you with tears.
Are you dreaming of me? I hope it is you do the most. This I wonder too.
I hope and pray your dreams have taken you to a magical place, dreams
Of happiness that leaves a smile upon your face.
I hope and pray you're not having dreams that scare you, awaking you to feel frightened and blue.
For I wish I could replace them with happy ones.
So please remember, for you have me and the angels too.
So if you awake with me beside you, you can be sure I'll give you a hug to make you feel better,
a kiss to wipe away the tears you may have.
Try to remember even though life can be sometimes a mess, dreams are our Way to escape.
They can bring pleasure, yes sometimes sadness and fright, but
They can never hurt or harm us.
As you may turn over to hold me closer,
For I hope you know you don't have to coax me
To want to be held that way, and so tight.
Because wrapped in your arms feels so right.
And so as we wake to a brand new day,
To the sound of the birds singing,
To the sun shining down upon us,
For that morning kiss I wait for most.
For that first morning kiss of love I treasure most.
Means you love to wake up to thee.
And that's far better than any of your dreams.
Thank you, you have made my dreams come true
As I hope I have for you.

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i can't go on this way
for everyday i sit, kneel, cry, and pray
i wish i could take away all the sadness
much more love is needed
in a world of too much madness
too much sadness
life is to short to go on being angry or hurtful towards one another
forgiveness is what our mothers' try to tell us to do
for aren't we living in a free world
so why don't we free each other and forgive one another
more smiles are needed in this world
more friendly faces
more hugs are needed to be shared
yes life can sometimes be unfair
but we were made to care
for one another, to live in peace and harmony
not to be unkind or full of anger or hate
to go down deep inside ourselves, find and provide
the love we need to live
we must try to get past our hurts
we must look past each others insecurities, our wrongs, and faults
instead look at all our good qualities that we all have
are we really here to hurt, judge, want revenge, punish and be unkind
to each other
or is it to forgive and live in life with love, forgiveness, tenderness
to extend kindness, compassion and a helping hand to one another
for we all have a story and something to contribute and learn from one other
the world would be a much better place

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i'm gonna love ya forever and ever
i'm gonna love ya forever and ever
i found heaven the day i found you
i was lonely till you came along
and chased away my blues
you've touched my heart
you've touched my soul
now take hold of my hand too
for i promise my love for you is true
and now that i found you i am whole
i'm gonna love ya forever and ever
i'm gonna love ya forever and ever
take me as i am
you must know that i'm far from perfect
i have my issues and my flaws
but the one thing that is true my love for you was always true
nothing you could do or say
would ever turn me away
i'll show and prove to you what i feel is true
you've touched my heart
you've touched my soul
i found heaven the day i found you
my love and devotion are yours forever and ever
until the day you say you no longer love me and that we must part

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life is like a roller coaster ride
with so many ups, and downs.
with so many twisting, and winding turns.
with life making you sometimes happy and
sometimes sad, that you want to frown.
love is like a burning desire.
love is like a tricky game.
love is so precious and worthwhile.
it leaves you to have to sometimes take a chance.
love may not be all fun and love can give you a scare
but it's sometimes worth the dare.
we must hold on and hope to find someone who cares
about all our dreams and fears.
someone who will be understanding, loving, and kind.
to help take away the tears and ease our minds.
to share the happy times too, hope, and pray the
two of you can make it through.
stay together through the years and for many years.
life and love is not always a piece of cake.
but through all the up and downs,
it all makes you think and come alive.
as to what life and love should and can be.
and what good you can contribute to each other.

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where are you my prince.
i want to be your princess.
where is the love i need to survive.
my knight in shining armor.
where are you? where are you hiding.
in a crowd i would not be able to pick you out.
so please come forward and rescue me now.
i've lost my way and in so much pain.
so where are you my prince.
i can't hold out much longer.
the sadness and loneliness is getting stronger.
where are you.
where are you hiding.
please come forward now and save me from this loneliness.
i've done everything i could for love and now i'm
sitting here all alone.
alone in a world where i feel lost and unloved.
as the rain falls all but around me,
so do the tears coming down my face.
it's a lonely place with out feeling cared and loved for
as the sunshines down upon me,
it hurts not having anyone to share the beautiful day.
the stars at night make me wonder and wish i could pick out
the star that my prince may be thinking of me.
so please my prince.
please come forward.
i need to feel your arms around me now.
for i'm losing my way,
and my heart is broken in two.
i don't know how much i can hold on.
i want to be your princess and share the
rest of my days and nights with you my prince.

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feeling so closed in for a long time.
she is fragile like glass.
a flower that is trying to bloom.
trying to become happy
instead of being so gloom.
yearns for open arms and a hand to hold,
but yet someone who is not so cold.
but yet someone who is friendly, kind, and warm
someone who will help her get past her storms.
not yell at her when she needs to cry.
not be afraid to ask her why
rejoice with her when she is happy
say they are proud and full of pride of her too
comfort her when she's feeling blue
run and play, help her seek and find herself
make her see she doesn't have to be to strong or meek
that whether strong of fragile she is still beautiful
trying to break out of her shell
picking up the pieces of her life
clear her conscious
cleansing and strengthening her mind, body and soul
strengthening her heart, her family and friendships.
this is her goal.
to live in the now,
clear the past
so the future ahead is clear and will last with
only positive outcomes.
enjoying the days as well as embrassing the nights
ddping her ground and to fight the demons of the past.
with much thankfulness and contentment
rejoice for there still are beautiful days ahead
make a difference in someone's life and her own.
maybe even get to be a good wife.
these are her dreams
she has no schemes
only looking to learn to be forgiving and be forgiven
to be tender, caring, compassionate to herself and others
this is what she hopes others will see.
the beauty if not on the outside but what
counts is that she has beauty on the inside.

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who needs wealth.
when all in this world you only need
true love, family, friends, and health.
someone to hold you to get you through
the bad times.
someone to celebrate the good times.
someone who will look you in the eyes
and only speak the truth.
never tell you lies.
someone to make you laugh when you're feeling sad.
someone to calm you down when you're feeling irate.
someone to hug you when you need comfort or
just to show how much your loved and cared for.
someone who you can truly trust to talk to.
someone who will never turn their back on you.
so who needs wealth when all in this world you only
need love.

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i feel so much pain and sorrow
never free of my past
no hopes for tomorrow
everything seems to be slipping
out of my hands so fast
nothing seems to be there to hold on to
hanging by a thread
for the lonliness keeps creeping up on me
leaving me to feel mentally, and physically paralyzed
because of the past
i get down on my knees to pray
in hopes someone hears my plee
for forgiveness
in hopes someone hears me
screaming inside my mind
for someone to believe in me
hold me until this heavey load seems to lift
so afraid i'm all alone
or that no one cares for thee
can anyone hear my plees
i'm so scared i've made no friends

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