We walk in cities of steel and glass,
Air-conditioned, sheltered,
Comforted from the elements.

Outside, the traffic roars, streaming by
On roads that run in the wrong direction
Each traveller seeking their destination.

We soar on eagles' wings,
We cross the horizon,
See the vastness of the world we have made.

From east to west, sprawling, towering,
Spreading like a living plant,
Civilisation sink it's roots into the earth.

Each hour, a new day dawns,
Across the world,
In a stately, ordered procession.

The world turns, O Lord,
Each day ordained by you,
Inspired with your perfection.

We walk on the streets of our world,
We hear the people calling,
We hear them crying, laughing, singing and mourning.

Skyscrapers loom, and shadows fall,
Hiding us from the sun,
As we walk on the streets of the world.

Oh Lord, walk with me,
And be my light,
As the world turns.

Once there is a monster name depression
He is strong
without warning he invade you
You can't take him away

He torture you.
He haunt you like demon day and night
He shatter your dream, you goal,
your ambition, everything you have hope for
He take your happiness away

He replace joy into sadness
He loves to see you suffer.

This monster is vicious, obnoxious
He doesn't care if you are rich or poor
beggar on the street or CEO in the company
He invade you without caring of who you are

A monster name depression

Sitting, Starring, Watching me, I look in the mirror what do I see?
I see emptyness starring back at me, I search the image that looks
like its not there, Wondering is theres hope as I sit there.
I sit oberserving the face , I just see her darkness all over the face.
Shes Darkness, she scared. She wants to be set free, But the darkness
keeps her not wanting to be free.
What will she do , where will she go, she just hide so nobody knows.
The darkness has her not wanting to be free as i sit there starring, watching me ....

You have opened my eyes to the world,
shown me there are many different people to make it go round,
I never judge on what I see,
instead i think and care and listen to every sound.
I am glad that you are my brother,
even if sometimes you act like you dont care,
you may struggle and fight and rant and cry,
but really I would never ever pick another I swear.

Theres a side to you I love and know so well,
my brother you have always been,
a smile I sometimes picture on you,
a picture I have often seen.
Sometimes your smiles get clouded,
sometimes your days become dark,
but I will always be here for you,
as I was from the very start.

So when the voices start to haunt you,
and the sadness fills the air,
do not fear dear brother,
as I am always there.

No one should ever be scared,
no one should ever be alone,
just call on me when you need me,
just go ahead and pick up the phone.

You maybe away in hospital care,
but every day i will call,
to see if your okay,
pick you up when you may fall.

I miss you with all my heart,
I wish you were at home but i know,
that to get you back on track,
this is the way for you to go.

Sometimes you may need a shoulder,
sometimes you may need hope,
sometimes you may need a little space,
to help you mend and succesfully cope.

But through it all I want you to know,
I love you more than i can say,
I will never let you down bro,
i will always be here to stay.

Why the hell do they not see their fears
why do people push them away with no care
why do they presume they will be okay
why dont they just stop and in them share.
WHY?
Why do they get their diagnosis wrong,
why do they treat one and not another,
why do they never stop to think,
about some one elses kid, sis or brother.
Why?
Why do they always ignore the patients family,
why do they question their fears
why do they drug a person instead of trying to talk
why do they ignore their tears
why?
Why should we all carry on in this way
why should we all keep our opions to the ground
why should we let the docotrs treat them like this
why should we all be happy with what they say they have found.
why?

I watched you sleep all night long
Hoping to God I was not wrong
I held you close while you slept
Hoped you'd not wake as I wept
I picked you up & put you in the car
Loving to know the ride was far
Changed your clothes, thinking "I'm insane"
Walked you as far as I could to the plane
Waved goodbye one more time
Turned to go feeling you were no longer mine
Almost had a fit on the way out
Hoping & Praying you wouldn't pout
Got out in the open to see you off
Not caring who would see or who'd scoff
Cried all the way to the car
Praying our future together isn't far
I'll see you again soon my Son
But until then be safe & have fun

Thru the years I've wandered, to
find a place where I belong

I can see I don't fit anywhere,
I should have known this all along.

Mother, father, showed no interest -
never did take me to heart;

But neglected and abused me -
getting broken from the start.

How do you interact with people,
when it's a struggle to survive?

You don't learn many social skills
while you fight to stay alive.

I'm a stranger to the world,
on the outside looking in;

On something I'm not a part of;
and I die inside again.

Who am I?
I am every person you ever met
I am everyone you never knew
I am everything and everywhere
I am the highest high and the lowest low
Everything and everywhere is me
I have no beginning
I have no end
I have no start, no finish
I am limitless
What am I?
I am all things
All places
All people
I am nothing
Nowhere
Nobody
I am a speck unnoticed on the ground
I am a tiny star in a vast universe
I am that invisible person you pass every day
I am of no importance
I have no value
Yet I am all powerful
I am all things
All things are me
I am in the universe
And the universe is in me
Immortality in all things
Everything in all ways
And nothing in particular
When I end
All will end with me
And you will never know
As you are me

Banging my head against a brick wall again tonight
Over and over in pain and spite
Hearing voices that only speak to me
Questioning all the time, can they not let me be?

My insides are screaming
And I know I'm not dreaming
All this hurt and all this pain
All can never be plain

Questioned and dismissed
They can't see what they've missed
They put me in a band
Which is where I must stand

They've formed their opnions
And they sway all their minions
Till all think bad of myself
It is even what I have felt

They don't understand the way I act
But I don't even understand and that's a fact.
I wish those peole would leave me alone
I don't want them invading my home.

He has a heart like a gun
and I've already written
a million stories about him.
Getting lost in the static
as I hear the shadows whisper
dive into them, take cover
lost underneath an ocean
an empty cold ocean
and the wind blows away the sand
all of this would of never happened
if he'd only let me sleep
finding the point in the hazy dreams
where meaning is dirt on the ground
he rescued me to heaven
a metaphysical force
and it shined
I begged him not to let go
as he pulled me closer to truth
he promised he wouldn't
promised he couldn't
and he shined
and he slipped
and I fell
he watched me fall
into the static
into the shadows
back to my world
where we're all blind
and sleep rules the dominion
he closed his eyes
and spread his angel wings
and left me
to my distorted fairy-tale
to be awake
in a world of haze.

Lo! Rainy was the day and
A perpetual bitter moment in wait;
Came to an end
With the entry of my soul mate.
With a radiant smile she looked very pretty
And kept me smitten by her beauty.
Her rosy lips,cheeks and loose hair
Brought some sweet fragrance in the air.
As she came closer and whispered something
My ears heard the sweetest words carrying happiness unending.
They made me listen them with rapt attention
While I touched her hands in a crescendo of emotions.
In an ecstatic mood I embraced her
Tried to express myself but couldn't utter.
That I too loved her more than anything
And today achieved her as the greatest blessing.
What tears joy speaking rained down my cheeks
In a continuous stream;
They symbolized my gratefulness to God
For fulfilling my most favourite dream.

The broken Has beens
Rebirth is something to admire
Soldier on my child, for God
Sake do not tire.
The world out there is waiting, for the
return of body and mind.
The angels are about you, to
treat you o so kind.
Fear not, for loneliness
is something that abounds
Lie awake my child
and hear the mellow sounds
Are they awaiting
for you to close your eyes?
Those bygone family members
That hear all your cries
Come my child come to
me your real father waits
And no more will you answer
a world that dictates.

The only thing I ever searched for in life
Was my soulmate to love me and make me his wife
I wanted his love professed three times fold
And with my soulmate together we would grow old

Now as I grew older thought I found it twice
The one who stood by me and gave me his life
I felt in my heart that we had became one
I'm Yesterday's fool, now it's over and done

I heard his words how they spoke to my heart
He said I was beautiful right from the start
His words they were filled with such power and pain
I thought he was different, I wanted his last name

I felt in my heart that he deeply loved me
But i'm not sure how with the lies he gave me
I don't know what made him talk through his lies
I beleived in his world, for him I would have died

I wanted to die when I saw what he said
I wanted to build my own red blood death bed
I expected it from another, but not from his lips
He asked for forgiveness, I even gave him this

I didn't want to sit in the other one's seats
Where I'm titled as a friend that he would need
I couldn't be fake as he asked me to do
But it's just who I am, as Yesterday's fool

It's hard when your lied to, to trust another heart
Other people don't deserve this at all from the start
One lie here and there, and then another one to boot
It's a lesson well learned, that's why I refer truth

I hope one day he finds honesty and truth
I will always refer to him as "Tyaboo"
I don't know why things happen the way they do
But if you run across a liar, don't be like me

Yesterday's Fool...

Whoever you are you live in a jar
your life is observed
as naked you lay, so vulnerable so lonely
so sad so alone, trying to make sense of yourself
and within the jar you remain
Outside is your world that captured your youth
it tried to destroy you torture and abuse you
but what is left of your shabby body
after all that agony and pain
and here you lay in the jar again
bleeding inside you try to hide from the terror
where is your sense of reason or belief
as the jar is your only salvation
but prison or protection matters not to others
only you can free yourself for your body is ruled by your mind and your mind is the jar
condition your mind therefore and be free of the jar

Can't express what I feel
anymore
can't find no words to say
no more
can't find my feet to stand
no more
can't find the light switch
lost in the dark

There's a fog
thick, choking
like the streets of
London
When taxis was horses

A smog so thick
its stealthy grip
blinds the eyes,
chokes the throat

Silently and suddenly,
wrapping its unwanted arms
around my person
around my mind

Dark clouds gather
to bring my rain
dark clouds gather
over my plain

Like losing your way
in the middle of a sentence
like going out
and forgetting what you went for

Swiss cheese
my mind
shot up like a
two - bit bum
who tried to steal the governer's daughter

Dark clouds gather

Don't tell me
really don't
I just can't listen or I just won't
you tell me you work it out
to my heart
you hold the key
open me up and see
hate pain and suffering
but most of all see the real me
crying alone
no one to talk too
to confide in
you know too much now I'm closing my door

No more
no more
no pain, no love, no me, happy now ???????

Please daddy listen
Don't you understand
I am so lonely
I need a friend.
Ofcourse it's my fault
I'm always to blame
It's my fault also
That I'm going insane.
My sanity at risk
My peace of mind is lost
I tried to hold it close
But it slipped away, a playful ghost.
You always say you know
Exactly how I feel
But you don't understand
That it's MY monsters that are real.
I think these words
As I cut deep into my skin
And ask if my future reflects
On the past and what has been.
I'm losing sanity, daddy
No longer daddy's little girl
My emotions stop surfacing
I'm losing contact with the world...

She knew she was about to drowned
Dark waters cloyed in moist embrace
Nor could she breath, hence stifled sound
Thus caused her heart to skip, and race

All that she'd known, was fading fast
What lights in yonder window shine?
Death's spasmed grip thrust her aghast
With tonic push, across the line

The night grew bright, screams filled her head
While all about her seemed to swirl
She felt a slap --- and voices said
"Congratulations" --- "It's a girl"

Take, and sift together, a Gentle Kiss, and Tender Hug -
Mix passionately, on the lips of your chosen one -
Blend in a Heaping amount of Love -
Add a Heartful of Deep Caring, and Understanding -
Next include a full measure of Forgiveness -
Fold - Hold - and stir briskly through the years -
Adding more of everything, as required, to taste -
....... and bake in your Heart, until Golden

Best results are obtained when:-
after the original high setting
The Oven of Love, is turned down to "Simmer"
Set the timer for ......... a lifetime!

I wouldn't say I'm a lonely girl
I wouldn't say I'm disadvantaged
But there seems to be this hole inside
That nothing can ever bandage.
I live my life, like a ghost of soul
Hoping is my burden
I wish I could just leave this life
Face the final curtain.

But I stand here, right on the edge
And pray for life to leave me
But all the same I keep my pledge
And refuse to let them see me.
Sometimes I cry, sometimes I'm lost
That's all there is to say
One day I'll fall and hit the ground
When all I want is to stay.

This blood is the tear that I just can't cry,
This pain is the anguish held on deep inside,
The blade is my freedom, sets the pain free,
gives me the feeling of being something real

The scars are the words that I can't express,
These feelings, these memories no longer repressed
I'm no longer living, I simply exist
This is self destruction and I can't resist.

My Jesus of Scorn,
Twisted in thorns of judgment.
Bleed no agony apon me.

Tread my ocean of tears,
Then weep my guiding light.
Breathe no given air of solemnity.

My Jesus of scorn,
Rusty nail bed.
Your fallen brow even doubts.

My miracle giver man,
don't turn from this pain,
For I could never be your enemy...